Good Day

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June 14, 2011 -- 12:21 a.m.
Good day. I managed to get 3000+ words on Skin Farm done. I also wrote up a 500 word synopsis. I have trouble with synopses, as I think everyone does. I can write ones that are about eight pages long or ones that are about a page long, but no in between. The short one, I cheated by doing the 'and they were tested by various challenges' kind of summary, but I can't think of any other way to do it. For some reason, God's Play seemed easier to shortly summarize even though it was a longer book. I'm not sure why.

There's a part of me that feels guilty for not writing more since I have a bunch of spare time at the moment, but there's only so much I can do before the well goes dry. I have to accept that I can't write at a breakneck pace all the time. I have my limitations.

It helps if I'm writing dialogue or action, then the words just fly by. It's also easier to write beginnings. As I get toward the end, it's harder to punch the keys because of worrying about past chapters and because of the looming sense of import. Your book is almost done. Is it any good? You'd better make it good and choose every word carefully, because the ending will make or break everything that's gone before. Maybe the beginning is important, because it gets people hooked, and maybe the middle is also really important, because it KEEPS people hooked, but the end is the last taste a reader will get of your style, of your philosophy, of your everything.

Which is why endings make me nervous.

***

I'm re-reading Katherine Kurtz's Deryni series. I liked it more when I was younger. It came out of a different age. I've become used to modern conventions, like magic systems with more rules. There's a lot of 'Camber learns a new spell' that can feel deus ex machina. Still enjoy it, though. Like old, familiar friends who've come to visit after so long.

Mojo

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May 2, 2011 -- 3:18 p.m.
Bah.

I've lost my mojo.

I said to myself, 'I'm going to spend the whole summer writing and revising. By the end of it, I'm going to have two great novels, and they'll be ready to send out by the time I start my grad school classes, and everything will be so peachy!'

And then...there was...meh.

This hasn't happened to me for awhile. It's been few weeks since I was able to do something remotely productive. I've been able to do little things--write a scene here, revise one there, but mostly I have a big plate of jiggly-squat.

It's possible that I just got burned out trying to do so much last quarter and I need a break. Maybe I need a change of scenery. Maybe I'm just stressed out because my car isn't working, I got moved to a different ward, I just saw my potential workload next year (staring at a school schedule that has advanced statistics/price theory and 9:30 a.m. makes my heart go thud), a single girl in a relationship crazy subculture all heated up over the silly pageantry of the royal nuptials, etc....

But whatever it is, except for small things, there's so much wonder and happiness and joy in my life right now, yet it all feels like it's sitting there at a slight remove. Kind of like when you're at this great party but all you want to do is go home and sleep.

I think it circles back to one idea: Good things stress me out, because I feel like, being so lucky, I'm obligated to do something wonderful to offset the fact I'm not living in a gutter or burning because my husband didn't like my dowry. I'm one of the luckiest, happiest, richest people who has ever existed in the history of the world, and nothing I can do will ever be superb enough to make up for that fact.

We're preprogrammed to root for the underdog. So what happens when we wake up one day and realize that we are the overdog? We're the enemy team in all those dumb sports movies. We don't deserve the success or joy that life handed to us on a platter, and we can never live up to the burden of being awesome enough to deserve our largess.

I think I can't write because I'm too afraid. Too afraid that no matter what comes out, it will never be good enough to justify my existence. At least, in potentia, the pages I write are perfect. Not so when they come out of my fingers.

My friends, my writing groups would make derisive noises at me, reading this, because I do write good things. But are they good enough?

This is the problem with authors' tendency to conflate their work with themselves. If my work = me and my work = not good enough, then, by the associative principle...

Well, you get the picture. The thoughts are stupid. But they're there, lingering in my lizard-y subconscious. I don't want to fail, but I don't know how to succeed either, because the thresh-hold for success to justify my happiness is so outer-space impossible that I would have to be Neal Gaiman on a Gandhi cracker to even brush my fingertips along the bar.

Or maybe it's something else that's making it so hard to look at my books with anything but revulsion. I hope writing all my thoughts down in a nonsensical internet screed will help me overcome this sense of ennui and fear that is clouding my creative processes.

I miss the days when writing was fun. How do I get the fun back?

Three Million Dollar Idea

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March 9, 2011 -- 11:10 p.m.

Too hilarious. Newbie writers...it doesn't work like that! Don't be that guy!

Application

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March 1, 2011 -- 2:40 p.m.

Finished my application to grad school. Got my GRE scores, too. I got a perfect score of 6.0 on the essay writing sections and decent on the verbal and quantitative -- 720 and 710 out of a possible 800. Reading other people's scores on the internet depresses me because so many people seemed to get perfect everything.

I'm so tired. The application process really stressed me out. It seems like the schools try on purpose to make it difficult and frustrating. Proof that you really want to go there, I guess. I'm not at all confident I'll get admitted because I know I messed up one of the forms, but I'm so sick of everything that if I don't get admitted because I submitted form A instead of form B (almost identical, but B has to be signed by two people instead of one) it will almost come as a relief. Part of me would rather get a part-time job selling hot dogs than try and start another career. I'm trying to get a degree that involves more math in the hopes that, if I haven't managed to publish a novel by the time I get out of school, then my job won't make me too tired of writing to write. I wasn't capable of coming home from work as a full-time reporter and then work on a novel. Too much writing.

Days like this make me want to go move in with one of my friends, who pays no rent because that he lives in a solar-powered van parked in some random forest. He doesn't have to buy much food either because he goes dumpster diving. I went with him once and enjoyed it. It gives one a real hunter-gatherer thrill. If you ever actually do it, you'll be amazed at how much stores throw away. There's so much waste in our society! Plus, if you go to places like Trader Joe's, you get really good food that's just, say, one day past an expiration date. Eating organic for zero cost! Yay! I didn't much care for rooting through moldy produce, though.

I paid my registration fee for the fantasy convention in Reno. I'm looking forward to it. A bunch of people in Brandon Sanderson's class are carpooling up together. I'm still looking for other people to share a hotel room with.

Ugh. I have a midterm this week. If it were just one week later, my life would be so much easier.

Speaking of math, apparently someone else shares my love of turning writing into charts and trying to break it down mathematically. You can read about it here. Ancient Greek detective stories is one of those ideas I wish I had thought of.

Cough! Aurgh! Splat!

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November 13, 2010 -- 1:57 a.m.

I was going to write a review of Percy Jackson and compare it to Harry Potter today but I ended up sick with the flu, and sitting up makes me feel like vomiting. Hardly a situation conductive to cogent thought. I could barely even watch my beloved figure skaters do their pretty lutzs at Skate America. Oh, Daisuke Takahashi, your babies would look so refulgent in the verdure of my viviparous womb!

(See, I'm practicing, right? No, not avoiding studying for the GRE. No, not me).

I blame my sickness on trying to multiply decimals without a calculator--a feat I have not performed since junior high school but which is apparently centripetal to my future education. The GRE people prove they are not entirely bilious idiots by planning to allow calculators in the revised version of the test...which kicks off in August, long after the grad school deadlines have passed, alas for moi.

As always, the math story problems are slaughtering me. They have been my nemesis for about two decades, keeping me out of that coveted 95th percentile. The fact I haven't taken a math class in 5 years hasn't helped, either, but I swear to all that I apotheosize, I will conquer all things quantitative!

The blogo-writing world has semi-exploded in response to an (intentionally?) inflammatory article at Salon.com which calls NaNoWriMo a waste of time and energy, basically pointing out that there are too many writers feeding the vanity presses anyway and we shouldn't be celebrating/promoting the production of junk. Carolyn Kellogg does a good job in refuting the analysis in her article at the LA Times' book blog, using skills that I will hopefully be able to imitate on my GRE argumentative writing sample. (You'd think I wouldn't sweat the writing samples, but I suppose one of the symptoms of my flu is advanced paranoia.) Other writers (like John Scalzi) have also condemned the article, rightly.

It's true that the original article sets up a foolish false dichotomy between reading and writing, but I will say that in certain sectors of the epic fantasy community, there are far more people who want to write 300,000-word books than people willing to plunk down the cash for 300,000-word hardcovers (outside of big names like GGRM). I suspect the proportion of wannabe writers to books published by the mainstream presses is higher in this genre than anywhere else, exception maybe romance. This is part of the reason the book I'm working on now is YA, where the market seems to have much more room for new writers. Being the internet, if anyone actually read this blog, I'm sure they'd take what I'm saying in a pejorative way, but allow me to exculpate myself: everyone should write epic fantasy if they want to. The merit of your ideas and your growth as a writer/human being has nothing to do with whether or not you are published, and it is quite possible that you will be. I love epic fantasy and read it and buy it when I can afford it. I am not saying don't write your epic fantasy, or that your epic fantasy isn't worth publishing.

In fact, I'm not entirely sure what I am saying, it's probably the flu talking, but the one thing in the Salon article I agree with is that it's a cool idea to pick a month and say, "let's read ten books this month." Not in competition with NaNoWriMo, but in conjuction with it, maybe in September? It would be especially salubrious for wannabe writers, who need to know the market they're entering into. And there's nothing better than closely analyzing other books to learn how to write. The basic tenets of grammar, plot, and character are all available for you to cadge from careful analysis of these texts. You don't have to memorize techniques out of context from some kind of writer's dictionary--as I am somewhat forced to do by the GREs--you have a nonpareil toolbox at your hand, one of almost infinite variety, weighing down the doughty shelves of your local library.

And I do think it's a tool that goes underused, because people tend to find their favorite authors and genres and keep to that niche for decades. Epic fantasy writers have stuff to learn from people like Robert Graves and Isabelle Allende, as well as stuff to learn from Brandon Sanderson and Robert Jordan.

So I would propose having a "Writers Read" book month (NaNoReMore?) where authors are required to read several books, some outside their favorite genres. And it can be like those things we had in elementary school, where if you turn in your book calendar all filled in, you can get a free pizza. Though I won't be paying for it, of course.

What am I writing for NaNoWriMo? I am not participating in it this year, unfortunately. I have far too much studying to do. (Sigh).

EDIT: No surprise, someone else has already come up with the NaNoReaMo idea.

On Style, and the GRE

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November 10, 2010 -- 9:57 p.m.

Blaarg. I've started studying for the GRE and man, it is rough. This is the first time I've ever studied for a standardized test. I usually score in the 89-93 percentile without trying, but it's been awhile since school and so I've decided to actually buckle down and try to do well. Plus, my college GPA is B+ territory, because I'm a lazy student (I learn, I just don't care enough to go to the trouble of proving to teachers that I've learned), so I could use a little boost when it comes to applying to grad school and internships.

Anyway, I thought the vocab part would be easy but I've been going through an old Kaplan study guide and discovering there are tons of words I am apparently expected to know but don't. Granted, I know most of them, but still, I wonder, why? What's the purpose of having a vocabulary so complex no one will understand you? I've never heard anyone use the word 'prolix' in my life. Or 'cavil.' Or 'orotund.' These are apparently important words, though, because my entire future might be hanging on them.

My journalism teachers taught as to write everything we could targeted at about a fourth-grade reading level. Lowest common denomination. All of my teachers acted as if it was a tragedy that we had to talk down to people, but as I advanced in my career I realized that there was a good reason for that. The ideas are more important than the words we use to tell them, and the ideas we present should be as clear to as many people as possible. That's one of the reasons I'm not so anti-cliche as many writers. If someone writes, "People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones," we all know what that means, right? It conveys the idea. Cliches are about the only time you can be sure that the reader and the author are sharing the exact same picture in their mind. Although, of course a clever writer would change the cliche so it still communicates the same meaning, but with a hint of world-building and humor. IE, "People who live in glass bungalows shouldn't throw lead-plated ostriches." Or something. Douglas Adams and Terry Pratchett are masters of this.

Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is a high vocabulary is not an end-goal in and of itself. I think it's only useful in as far as it's...well, useful. Always go for clear communication of a new idea, instead of trying to use words that make you sound intelligent. If a reader stops and pulls out a dictionary, that's a bad sign.

Then again, I love reading Orson Scott Card because he uses big words like "corpuscular." And that's a cool word worth knowing. Some other good words I've discovered through the GRE learning process--jocose , turgid, peregrination, philogyny, mordant, moribund, volant and mendacious.

I also learned I've been using the word 'querulous' wrong all my life. I always thought it was a synonym for tremulous. Whoops. Hope that word isn't in any of the drafts I sent agents...

Drafting of Beautiful Reality

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Free afternoon snuggling with a friend's laptop while on vacation. Time to write!


I thought I'd put it here for now, because the large amount of spam on my email will otherwise have it buried.

BEGINNING: Beautiful Reality
THESIS: One-legged boy who works as an assassin when all minds are linked by computer must go into the computer to rescue his sister from the computer mafia.
INSPIRATION: Want to experiment with present tense. Also, Inception. Good movie, but it could have been better, done more. I liked it, but I also felt a little disappointed because all the buzz made me think that it would be so much better. I think if I had walked into the theater with zero expectations I would have been blown away. I can't put my finger on what's missing...I think all the twists and turns in Dark Knight. I could kind of see the plot coming, down to the end, and Leonardo DiCaprio didn't feel like the right actor to carry the lead to me. And it had some moments of extraordinary visual beauty, but nothing like the wonder of Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. Still, it was one heck of a summer movie. It's nice to see original films (not remakes and sequels) and movies that don't assume that their audiences have the intellectual capacities of five year olds. I was additionally amused because an excerpt Brandon Sanderson read from the Way of Kings involves a gravity fight. Great minds think alike. I wonder how many stupid people will accuse him of ripping it off.

ANYWAY... typing

CHAP 1: Gepetto
In my dreams, I have two legs. I'm not a freaky Pinocchio waiting for some blue fairy to sweep in and turn me into a real boy. My knee doesn't end in a massive net of tubes and sticky bio-flesh that smells like burning plastic and looks like a robotic turd.
In my dreams, I have real skin and muscles. Real veins pulsing with real blue blood.
In my dreams, I don't have to kill people.
In my dreams, I can still run.
***
But now I'm limping, pushing my hand on a warm doorplate smeared with the grease of years. Pressed by the sweaty fingers of men who came in nervous but left relieved or maybe never left at all. The bartender inside looks like a bent wire, with his copper skin and bald head, swollen joints and bones that stick out. The papery skin of an old person.
His eyes widen when he sees that I'm young, fourteen (though he probably thinks I'm younger, people always think I'm a child and it makes me mad), and his smile deepens.
I'm so sick of dealing with Marvy's pedophiles. Is there anyone working for him who's not a pervert?
"What'll you have, boss?" the thin bartender asks, though his slurring lips make the "s" sound like "f" so it comes out as "boff."
Two Geisha clones in the corner giggle and flutter coal-black eyelashes at me. Their faces are half-hidden behind razor-lace fans that buzz with enough electricity to stop a human heart. Despite their stupid platform shoes and the white, stretchy kimonos that make me think of cocooned skin-bugs, I know that Marvy never hires a Geisha bodyguard unless she's killed someone. Their lips are painted, wet and red as blood.
"I don't want anything to drink," I say, trying to ignore the way their eyes tickle the back of my neck. I can't look afraid. Not yet. "I want a girl."
The pervert looks disappointed.
"My sister," I quickly say, sickened by what kind of girls the people who come into Marvy's bars usually want. "She's gone from the Pave."
The bartender scratches his earlobe, which has a big hairy black mole dangling from it. This time, his grin does not look so friendly. He knows the Pave is Marvy's private hostage preserve. The metal detector didn't go off at the door, so he knows I'm not carrying steel, but plastic explosives, or wooden swords or guns made from processed carbon could all be slicked past the booby examine. I could be carrying a thousand things in my black trenchcoat and pair of teal green sneakers.
"Marvy knows where she is," I say. "I want to see him. Now."
The bartender jerks his head. "He's in back. But the question is, does he want to see you?"
"He will," I said. "After all, I'm a Skinner."
The bartender's look is sadder this time. He thumbs a door open in the wall. The wooden slats slide apart, and I can smell Tooth Fairies--the menthol cigarettes that Marvy loves. "Back there," he says.
The door is dark. I go inside.
***
Marvy is younger than the bartender, but still old. I have to look at him through the walls of the glass tube that dropped down on me from the ceiling. Protective custody. If Marvy leaves me in here, I'll suffocate. But I'm his best Skinner, so sure he won't. Or almost sure.
He looks at me with small black eyes almost completely buried in the fat flesh of his forehead. Crinkles around his lips and nose make him look like he's smiling even when he's not. For a fat man, he moves with an almost birdlike grace, his sausage fingers deftly picking roast snails out of shells smothered in garlic and olive oil. His black, pressed business suit is clean because he never spills a drop. The snails make little wet crunching noises as they vanish between his wormy pink lips.
"Tommy, my boy," he says affectionately, reaching out as if he would tousle my hair if not for the glass barrier between us. Everything else but me and his table is in shadow, while we stand in two squares of yellow light. I hear hushed laughter coming from the other tables. And soft, nervous coughs.
I wonder how many other men have heard those coughs before they died.
I glare at him. "I want my sister, Marvy."
Marvy's eyes widened. "Well, I don't have her in my pocket."
"You have her, Marvy. When I went to visit her flat in the Pave, she was gone."
"I had her transferred. She's doing some work for me."
I swallowed. I knew what that meant. The whorehouses. Young women stacked in rows of pods, their minds trapped in virtual reality while men used their empty bodies. Or their bodies were controlled by pleasure computers or prostitutes whose own bodies were too old and ugly to attract clientele. They called the sub-Contracted bodies "Gloves."
"The debt's almost paid off," I say to Marvy. "You were going to let her go soon."
"And this will make the payments go faster," Marvy replies. "Frankly, kid, I'm doing you a favor. It'll be quicker this way. And it wasn't as if she wasn't giving it away for free."
If the glass wasn't between us, I would have thrown myself at him and torn his nuts off. "Put her back, Marvy. I've paid you enough for that much."
Marvy shrugged. "Your work hasn't all it should be, of late. I thought you could use some extra incentives."
I shiver. He knows.
Marvy takes out another Tooth Fairy and lights it. He sits back, puffing contentedly. "You know, I got into the business about your age, Tommy."
"I don't want to--"
"Listen!" Marvy cuts me off angrily. "I'm trying to teach you something. I was thirteen when I began running drugs for my father. Weak stuff. Black Cream and Pleasure Diadems, mostly. But the shit scared me half to death. The things it was doing to people. To customers I knew. There was this one woman who came at me once, tearing her hair out. I mean literally tearing her hair out, pulling out thick, dirty brown clumps that she'd shove in my face. She had lipstick on, but only on her bottom lip, smeared over her chin. By drool.
"I wanted out, but my father wouldn't let me stop seeing her or any of the other people we helped mess up. He said to me, 'Marvy, my son, sentiment can get you killed in this world.'"
Marvy leans forward, his fat gut swelling over his knees. "And he was right. Because when three men with crowbars starting beating the crap out of him, trying to find out where I was after I taught their punk ass brother a lesson, my father refused to talk, and so they beat him to death. He died to protect me."
Marvy leans forward and looks me in the eye. "Do I look like my father, Tommy? Do I look like the kind of man who'd do that, Tommy?"
"No," I say.
"Shit no. Because I'm not. When kidnappers sent me my wife's fingernails I said, 'to hell with it.' That's all I have of her. Her fingernails."
He taps his neck, and I realize for the first time that he's wearing a tight gold band around his neck, half-hidden by his enormous, stubble-covered jowls. Ten white slivers dangle from it on little golden chains. I can just make out the old flecks of red paint.
"I'm not like that," I say, revolted. "I'll never be like that."
"You will be, Tommy," he tells me. "Lack of sentiment. That's what makes you such a good Skinner."
He gestures. The glass tube around me goes up. But before I can do anything but suck in deep lungfulls of fresh air, two men with huge bionic shoulder muscles come and grab me by the arms. They haul me up by my arms so I'm on the toes of my one remaining foot, the weight of my entire body hanging on my shoulders. It hurts like hell. I can see one of them out of the corner of my eye. Brutish face. The empty, slack eyes of a Glove. Marvy always switches the minds of his bodyguards, because it's easier to deal with pain if it's not your own body. Though it makes them slow and stupid, too.
They have matching tattoos on the centers of their foreheads. Blue, swirling things that glowed in the bar's old light.
"In fact," Marvy continues lazily to me, reaching out to pinch my cheek, "you're too good. I've decided you'll work for me, or nobody, Tommy. I'm not going to train you anymore only to have you turn around and become the tool of one of my enemies. I want a Contract." The capital was audible in his voice.
"You saying you won't tell me where my sister is unless I agree to work for you for life?" The idea of wearing his tattoo like his goons did, of being fully and completely owned by this man, made me feel sick and dizzy.
"That's right, genius-boy," Marvy says. "You kill for me and only for me. For the rest of your life. It'll be better for you too, this way. Forget your sister and whatever lies she told you about me. I'm a good man, and you're too good for her. She's past. Together, Tommy, we can create the future."
"And if I say no, you'll kill me?" I ask.
"No," Marvy says, but I can tell he is lying. "I'll give you a week to decide."
His dismissive gesture sends the two men carrying me out through the bar. Past the knobby, pervert bartender. Past the Geisha clones who look at me with wide, dark eyes. They dump me on a trash-covered sidewalk. They give me a kick in the hip for good measure, so it hurts when I have to struggle up. One of them is going to take my artificial leg and play keep away but the other one tells him we can play with me later.
They wouldn't do that to me if they could see what I was capable of. If we were in the Mindplay...
Well, we weren't. When it came to ripping people's minds out of their bodies, I was a giant. But in the real world, I was just a cripple.
A cripple with one week to find his sister.
***
Locating the body was easy. My sister's new Cube was actually slightly larger than the rooms at the Pave, and the bed she slept in was soft and well-tended by nurses. Women in tight white shirts came to roll her over every three hours, to monitor her temperature and make sure her bowels were always sparkling clean.
Penrose looked like she was asleep, her cheeks full with the faint pink blush of a Flash addict. Her brown hair hung around her shoulders in dark, curly waves. Unlike the last time I had seen her awake, it looked clean and fresh. The same color as our mother's.
I couldn't touch her, of course, not through the plastic sack-bubble covering her body, floating up and down with her breathing. The body's immune system is always weakened when someone goes into deep mind-sleep.
I put my hand as close to hers as the nurses would let me. I could feel the heat of her skin through the plastic. Unnaturally hot, but I couldn't see a drop of sweat on her. Nobody was home. Her mind was asleep, unable to regulate her simple bodily processes. The computer tubes jammed down her throat did everything for her. Told her when to breathe. Made her eat. Even stimulated her bladder so she'd know when to pee.
I hated looking at her this way. It was like looking at a doll.
"Visiting hours are almost over," a nurse tells me.
I glare at her, but she has the no-nonesense eyes of a bureaucrat who would call the police on a boy who just wants to spend some time with his older sister.
"All right," I say. "Can I have a few minutes alone with her?"
"No," she says.
I sigh and turn back to Penrose. A lot of sisters would abandon their brother, if they had a defect like mine. She would probably have been better off if she had. She wouldn't have gone into debt for my medical bills after I got run over. She wouldn't have had to start selling Flash to get cash to pay off ruinous interest from Marvy. And then...she wouldn't be addicted.
She should be in a music school somewhere. She used to sing to me, when we were orphans huddled under the tracks of the Monorail, listening to the hiss of New Jerusalem's flag as it snapped in the cold wind. Chapped lips and stomachs with nothing but water inside. That had been our life, until she sacrificed everything she had to make it better.
It was better. At least we had something to eat, now. Although she'd never know it. She'd grow old and die like this. Dreaming.
Unless I could save her.
The nurse pulls at my shoulder. "Time to go," she says curtly.
I nod and let myself be pulled away.

--end of chapter one--

Just so you know, that took me approx. 45 minutes to type. Like I say, I'm a fast typer!

The tense thing probably isn't working as well as I thought. I was thinking present tense would make the whole thing feel more dreamlike, but I think it's just distracting.

I think it sounds better in my head than on paper. My first drafts always tend to be a little heavy on the melodrama.

Monday is Funday

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April 26, 2010 -- 12:19 p.m.

There's an article on writing from the Tor blog worth reading.

I wonder how much money you need to make to become a "frillionaire?"

I feel that way sometimes. I have a hard time seeing things through, but my rigid journalism training pushes me up and over my writing blocks. Even though I may hate writing about that damn city council meeting, I have to do it so I make the best of it. I may despise my novel at the moment, but I'll keep plugging through until it's finished. That's why, for me, writing block almost never happens. I'll write something, acknowledge it's crappy, re-write it ten thousand times, and then maybe end up satisfied. It's actually an inhibitor in some ways, because writer's block is a warning siren. I bet I wouldn't have to revise so much if I had it more often.

I miss the newspaper world in some ways. Having a deadline always hanging over my head made it easier to write, which is why the strict structures of a writing group can be very helpful.

New Post

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April 8, 2010 -- 6:38 p.m.

So yeah, I've been busy. I've been putting up fences, spending time with the family, planning trips, cannodling with Fred, celebrating birthdays, reading books and writing Skin Farm. It's about a third done, and I finally have a handle on one of the characters that was giving me a hard time.

I haven't forgotten the blog. I just haven't put the time aside to work on it. I have like thirty books in the queue for review which I'll get to. I read a lot without writing anything because I'm pretty picky about my books, and I try not to write reviews if they're mostly negative. But I think for a few of the books I review, I'm less going to advocate reading them than pointing out the lessons writers can learn from them. Even if I don't particularly like a book, I can still learn from it.

Speaking of learning, you might want to check out "Ten Rules for Writers." I especially like Margaret Atwood's advice. Number seven on her list: "You most likely need a thesaurus, a rudimentary grammar book, and a grip on reality. This latter means: there's no free lunch. Writing is work. It's also gambling. You don't get a pension plan. Other people can help you a bit, but ­essentially you're on your own. ­Nobody is making you do this: you chose it, so don't whine."

Dream, Writing Prompt #14: Place of Peace

Posted by Unrepentant Escapist

March 8, 2010 -- 6:23 a.m.

I had an odd dream last night. I was biking and a friend of mine came up to me. I knew she was the servant of an old woman who lived in a house nobody but writers could see. She was a witch, but not the bad kind. A wise woman muse who offered advice to young writers. She lived there alone, except for her servant, her daughter/niece, who spent time reading, chuckling, and breaking wood for their shack's fireplace. I knew that this muse had given Robert Jordan advice in his youth, and that she had been his model for an aes sedai, because when I walked into her shack and saw her cloak on her hook, I saw not one, but many, all flickering because they contained all the ages and styles of the world, including Verin's brown vines. She had lived a long time, was very powerful, and very wise.

I would go to visit her as often as I could. Once, I accidentally led a boy to her, even though her location had to be secret. He followed me, desperate to talk to her, even though the road to her house is laced with broken glass meant to cut the unworthy. I'm not sure what happened to him. When I tried to follow him in, the muse's servant slammed the door in my face.

But one day, the servant came to me and told me I had to come, and to bring one of the people in my writing group. She warned him that the "life" of his story was in danger because it wasn't political enough. By which she meant that he wasn't exploring the tyranny of the government's effect on the 'little people' and he needed to do more with it. He needed to reflect on our own government and compare it to his, weaving its follies of history into his word. His story lacked Truth with a capital T, and so would fail.

I asked her what I needed to do. About how I was afraid I was just a wordcrafter, not a storyteller, because I can spin descriptions and make words dance in people's heads, but my stories are not as good as the writing deserves. About my concerns about whether I should continue on as I am, unemployed except for the small jobs, or try to find a job that will let me write and earn money at the same time. Her answer was mostly a shrug, that I should do what I think is best. Then she asked me to describe the stories I was working on, and I told her about the three, how I couldn't seem to settle on my next project because none of them felt right. She told me all my stories were good ones and the main thing I lacked was patience. Patience with myself, patience with others. Patience with the characters that hadn't yet found themselves in my text.

Then she stroked my cheek and said, "don't worry, if you work hard enough, you'll be able to take my place here one day."

And I woke up deliriously happy, because I knew that this is who I am and always will be, and one day, I will get to live in a wood-heated hut in the middle of the slums that no one can see, giving advice to young writers that can change lives. Coax happiness. Give thought.

***

A true dream, I think, advice to stay on the path I have chosen. People who read my writing later may be surprised to find out that I'm a Christian, because I write such blasphemous things about gods. Take the current epic fantasy I'm working on, where there are seven nations, each one's culture inspired by the seven deadly sins. Part of Christianity's domination of the western world came from the fact it absorbed pagan religions. In my world, it's the other way around, paganity won, but many of the Christian rituals are kept, because they were absorbed. This creates interesting contradictions that I'm still trying to work out (Like, why gods and goddess with such sexual natures would have priests so fully determined to censor everything).

I suppose it is my backlash against worshippers of the recidivist Goddess theory, which believes that there was once a goddess religion that taught peace and love and everyone was happy until the big bad male-centered religions came to suppress them, demonizing Eve and Pandora until all we have left of that religion are little fertility statues and memories of goddesses as bearers of evil.

I believe that there certainly was goddess-worship in the past and that it certainly was repressed, but I don't believe that it was the peace-loving, nature-worship that certain authors claim it was. So my goddesses are sexually-charged and as brutal as their male collegues. Perhaps because I am so full of emotional conflict and hatred and frustration, I sympathize more with the war bringers dieties than the mascots of peace. They are more...human.

But though I cannot explain god's interventions in certain lives, I believe sometimes he whispers peace and confidence to me through my dreams. I believe that it is not the wish-fulfillment of my subconscious, but a true message to keep on trying until I get it right.

So I have written my place of peace, of inspiration. What's yours?

WRITING PROMPT #14
Title: Place of Peace
Genre: None
Type: Self-exploration
, Dialogue

If you could go somewhere to experience peace and confidence in yourself as a writer, somewhere to go and get ideas, where would it be? What would it look like? Who would be there? What kind of questions would you ask that person?

Some people are lucky enough to have places like this in real life. In high school, I had a bridge. And under it, I could lay back and just listen to people crossing and talking, and no one knew that I was there. I liked that. I'm a bit of a sociophobe, so being able to satisfy the human need for company without having the stress of having to act a certain way was very nice. I never had to perform for anyone, but I wasn't completely isolated either. That's my perfect place, where I can be with someone so completely that I don't have to worry about what I say or do. That I can be as bitter and vulgar as I want to be, and no one will judge me or think less of me.

Find your peaceful place, populate it with a muse, even if you'd prefer to be alone, and write to that person about a difficulty you're having with the story. Let your mind drift as you write the response your muse might make. Perhaps, by writing it out, you'll be able to find a way around your difficulties.

That's what I do. And I'm surprised how often it works.

How to start with characters and end with plots

Posted by Unrepentant Escapist



October 25, 2009 -- 11:49 p.m.

I think I’ve mentioned before that I’m a character writer—world-building and plots comes difficult to me. Usually, as an author, I throw several characters together in a bag to watch them bounce around like atoms. Whatever comes out is my story. Which is why sometimes my stories seem a little disorganized. Another downside of this method is that characters pretty much dictate the story. So it’s hard to think of revisions to the plot because you’re stuck in this box: the character told me that this is how the story must be and therefore it IS that way, because the author becomes the character’s mouthpiece. And some characters can be pretty darn dictatorial. Sometimes, when I write I feel like there are real people sitting on my shoulders telling me what to say. Every author has an intense intimacy with their characters, and I don’t know whether my relationship is deeper or whether I’m more insane or whether everyone feels this way. Another downside is that you end up with the lots of story starts because you have great characters, but their stories never quite reach completion because you’re missing other elements. For example, I have the beginning to a novel where a female psychotic serial killer with multiple personality disorder in the jazz age is trying to prove that, this one time, it wasn’t her who killed the young pianist. Interesting character, but one I’m pretty sure I’m incapable, at this point in time, of pulling off as a writer. The unreliable narrator plus the historical research plus the first-person perspective are all things I haven’t played with much before, so it’s just more than I can swallow in one gulp, no matter how intriguing a premise. I wonder how many flapper era mystery series are out there. I think it’d be such a fun, noire world to write in.

Despite the drawbacks, “character-first” is the method that works best for me. To paraphrase Orson Scott Card, there are four basic elements to any story: setting, concept, plot and characters. (He calls setting mileau and concept idea but it’s the same thing, in my eyes). If I try to start with a setting, the story is usually boring. If I try to start with a concept, the story ends up being preachy. If I try to start with a plot, the characters end up as robots basically obeying the beck and call of the deux ex machina.

So, for me, it all comes down to character. But even character writers need words, plots, and interesting ideas to make their stories good. So, what do you do if you have fascinating characters and no stories to put them in? If the colorful Space Mercenary Xllista, who is allergic to spinach and loves crocheting almost as much as she loves cutting down three-armed aliens with her thrumming laser sword, is sitting in you notebook with nothing else to do?

Here are my thoughts on how to turn characters into stories:

1) How to let your characters build your worlds for you

When I say I imagine characters, that image I have doesn’t exist in a vacuum. Usually I know at least a couple of experiences I want characters to have while in a story. For example, if I want Naheel the King of Thieves to learn humility, I figure a showdown with a big bad wizard at some point in time will temper his enthusiasm. I call this point a “milestone.” I have five or six milestones inside of my head that I plan to sprinkle throughout the story. I don’t know the order or the pacing, but I do know they HAVE to happen.

Because those milestones add up, when I think of a character and their growth in the story, I have two points. A)--the characters’ starting point, who they are at the beginning, and b)--who the characters need to become at the end. Usually that involves a character going from weakness to strength, overcoming some prejudice or fear. Luke Skywalker goes from farm boy who can’t defend his aunt and uncle from the evil empire to jedi warrior capable of blowing up the Death Star. Alternatively, a character can go from strength to weakness—the Starks in the A Game of Thrones lose the head of their household. Their family is scattered. Most endings are mixed: Luke Skywalker gains some mastery over his force, but loses his mentor. Or, more complicated, you have strength goes to weakness which in the end results in even more strength. Without his loss of Obi-Won, Luke wouldn’t have been forced to stand strong in himself and wouldn’t have been strong enough to stand up to the Emperor in the end of the trilogy. And this character metamorphosis is why its such an enduring story. Though Han Solo, Wookies and Light Sabres all help of course, because they are a handful of awesome.

If you haven’t yet come up with both a and b for your character, or at least a bunch of milestones, this exercise probably isn’t going to be too useful to you. Though if you don’t have both a and b, you probably either need to think about your characters more or you’re suffering from a case of “this character is god!” There is going to be no character development in your story, because your character has no weaknesses to overcome, no learning to do. He is a perfect, living god on the page.

But remember that godlike characters still have weaknesses and room for growth. Roland may be a godlike gunslinger in almost every way, shape and form, but he still grows throughout the Dark Tower series. Though if you’re a beginning writer, I’d advise staying away from impossibly mighty characters, because they’re so rarely as interesting to your readers as to you as author. Roland is one of the few characters I can think of who starts out godlike who I like. The point is, most characters we care about in spite of their godlike abilities, not because of them. Or at least, that’s how it shakes out with me as a reader.

So, the bottom line is: how can you create a world that forms the character at point A? For example, say it is important for a character to have an almost crippling fear of heights. While you could examine what mundane event led to that fear on an individual level—maybe her parents got killed rock climbing on Mars—you can also build a world where that fear is common, in fact, where not having that fear would make one a Despereux-type freak. For example, a world of underground dwellers who build caves in the rocks specifically to get away from heights. Part of their religion might be that anyone who ever stands on the surface has a chance of being soul-sucked by malevolent spirits. Alternatively, you can build the society so that the character’s weakness makes her even MORE of an outcast. For example, a girl who’s afraid of heights living amongst a bunch of winged cliff-dwellers (she’s the only one who was born ‘bare-backed’—an obscenity among their people because it Is so inherently disgusting) or people who live in homes at the top of God-trees, deities that have been imprisoned in tree form and demand the worship of the people who live in their mile-high hair. Maybe her inability to worship them because she can’t muster the courage to climb high enough is why she gets exiled and has to go wandering around to find the magical MacGuffin.

Both these scenarios I came up with on the fly in fifteen minutes, so they’re a bit cliché, but you get the idea. The world can and should be an echo of the character’s own internal conflict. The world should always heighten the conflict, both external and internal. Repeat the process with point b, where you want the character to end. Repeat the process with every milestone—have the characters’ growth help you brainstorm some new detail of the environment. In the end, if you’ve got a good character, you should also have an interesting environment because it grows out of that interesting character.

And of course, every layer of depth you can add is a good thing. What kind of profanities would winged aliens use? What kind of items would they consider most valuable? How do they get dressed in the morning? From these types of questions, you can get an interesting concept, like “what happens if the heir to the throne is a throwback without wings and ends up exiled amongst the human colony of weak scientists she once despised…only to discover that humans genetically engineered her people in the first place and are now working to stop a disease that’s been thinning the flyer’s population for the past century, a problem resulting from their attempts to play god?”

Bottom line, it’s time to brainstorm, but hopefully now you have some good points to start with.

2) How to turn characters in the plot:

For this exercise, you need more than one character. Hopefully, a lot of characters.

One of the difficulties in my book is that I have too many characters. Out of curiosity, I counted. Godsplay has 43 named characters in the book. That means, on average, I introduce a new named character every 3,250 words, or one every 13 pages. Of course, most of these are only in one or two scenes or even referenced but never seen, but that’s a lot to keep track of, and it’s a lot of plots to forward, because every character in my opinion should a) be real b) exist to forward the plot/add something to the story (such as humor). And while I need a lot of characters to forward the plot, that means I need a lot of back story, motivation, and conflicts to be resolved. The number of POV characters is much more reasonable: 8, of which 3-4 are the main POVs and the others are all throwaways with only a couple of scenes each. So I need less help coming up with plots than knowing which plots to emphasize.

But say you don’t have that problem. Say you need to come up with plots and subplots. Say you’ve got three characters: Jack and Jill (your young lovers) and Josh (your villain). You know that Jack and Jill are on a quest for a holy grail, but not the details of what happens along the way.

Now, what drives a plot? Tension. If your plot has no tension, no conflict, then you really have no plot. You have a bunch of stuff happening. There’s a difference.

If you think back to your high school English classes, you might remember that there are numerous kinds of conflicts. Man versus nature, man versus himself, etc. But my favorite and what is often the easiest to write is interpersonal conflict.

So, you have interpersonal conflict between Jack and Josh over the holy grail. But is that their only point of tension? Say Josh is also an evil warlord who is attacking Jack’s village. If Jack doesn’t succeed, everyone in his village will die. That’s the stakes. But let’s peel that onion a little more. What is Josh’s motivation? Maybe he’s attacking the town in the first place because Jack and all the other villagers bullied him as a child, mocking him and beating him up because he was an orphan with a messed up face. That ratchets the tension even higher because in some ways, Josh’s retribution is justified and Jack not only is fighting for lives, he’s fighting for his own redemption over the mindless acts of cruelty he had participated in or even instigated as a child.

Knowing this about your characters can stimulate several actions or subplots. For example, what if Jack decides to try and find Josh and apologize. And Josh laughs in his face, or accepts it but refuses to stop killing the other villagers. Or what if Jack decides to take the fight to Josh’s adopted home village in return, threatening to use his magic to completely wipe the village off the map if Josh doesn’t back down, resulting in a Cold War style standoff?

Or what if Jack stumbles on a village stoning an outcast secondary character (who we’ll call James) and this time, instead of passively standing by, Jack steps in and stops it. In the process, he might gain James’ loyalty for life, and James has an essential clue to the location of the Holy Grail. Or James turns out to be one of Josh’s spies and the villagers’ cruelty is actually justified. In the end, he betrays Jack despite his kindness.

The possibilities are endless, but none of them would be available if you didn’t know the character’s crucial motivations and the levels of conflicting tension. A rule of thumb: the more layers of tension you have between characters, the deeper the story. That doesn’t always mean better. Too many subplots can end up confusing events, or distracting from your central theme. Sometimes your innkeeper is just an innkeeper, and sometimes he’s a single father of three trying to make ends meet in the middle of the Apocalypse.

And what about Jill? Say you know she’s a divorced mother who lost track of her infant son during a war, when soldiers left her for dead but took the baby boy. How does this affect her relationships with the other characters? Is Josh actually Jill’s long-lost son (although this could make difficulties for the Jill-Jack love-interest angle)? Has Josh promised to let her know the location of her child if she finds the grail and turns it over to him? Or maybe Josh is her divorced husband, who abused her, and she’s not going on the quest for the grail because she wants to find it, but because she wants revenge and she knows the quest will draw Josh to her.

And maybe she’s in love with Jack because his vulnerability reminds her of Josh before he became an evil megalomaniac, or maybe just because he has the same brown eyes as her son did, and, in the end, her story is resolved when she accepts her love for Jack and, at the same time, that she may never know who her son is. Maybe she’s afraid Jack will turn into Josh, because Josh’s treatment of her has made her cynical of all men. And so, at the end of act 2, Jill flees Jack with the key to the grail’s location because she doesn’t think any man can be trusted with it, and so Jack has to catch her before Josh does.

Any of these relationships can add either plot twists or subplots, and gives characters rational reasons for acting irrationally, which is sometimes necessary for a plot. Because there are no books I hate more than the books where characters act stupidly for no reason whatsoever.

From the villain’s angle, maybe Josh, Jill’s divorced husband, still loves her, and he is certain that finding the holy grail will make her return his love. Perhaps the holy grail even contains a love potion, and she will be forced to love him for the rest of her days as a mindless love slave. How will his love of Jill change his actions? Maybe, in the grand climatic battle, he realizes Jack makes Jill happy and so truly relinquishes her at last

Whichever choice we pick, we still end up with a fairly standard Josh/Jill/Jack love triangle. How can we spice it up? By bringing in the other characters, of course. What about the waif James, who Jack rescued to make up for his own cruelty as a child? We’ve already established Jacks’ relationship and potential conflict with James (is he a spy? Was the villager’s stoning of him potentially justified?) but what about Jill? Does Jill protect James because he reminds her of her own son, protecting him when all logic says she should be doing otherwise? Or what if, because of her suspicion of everybody left by her life in constant abuse, she suspects James is a traitor from the beginning and Jack has to restrain her from hurting the boy? What if James is actually her lost son, and she goes from suspecting him to being ashamed of her mistrust? And what if James lies and tells her he is her son, even though he knows he isn’t, perhaps because his mother is being held by the bad guy who says he will kill her if James doesn’t find the grail? Maybe Josh is James’ father, and Josh only had sex with James’ mother in the first place because she physically resembles Jill.

Complications upon complications. And note, this sort of thing can go on in the background while the main questing happens. So, even if there’s nothing particular going on in the main plot (we’re riding horseback from one area to another, cue montage of trees and quiet brooks) the tension is still kept tight by the character’s relationships.

In my opinion, the two more important areas of study outside of English and creative writing programs for an aspiring author are acting and psychology. Acting teaches you to get inside a character’s head and forces you to (unless you have a really hands-on director) to make up a lot of motivation behind their lines, turning phrases that can be really generic into something sinister or humorous, because of the motivations you infuse into it. Hanging motivations onto a framework of plot that cannot be altered and making every line logical, even when the play isn’t always. Psychology is also important because it forces you to examine the minutia of human behavior, and so you can think to include things like displacement and avoidance into your characterizations, which make your characters more real.

But every character you add is a potential for plot twists and subplots. If you’re finding it difficult to keep tensions high, I’d advise you to try the following exercise. I either invented it myself or read about it long ago and borrowed it so deeply from someone else that it became my own.

Write the names of several characters, the ones that are most important to the plot, on a piece of paper, roughly in a circle or wheel formation. I use the back of envelopes, because when I see a blank piece of paper, I get a little intimidated. Backs of envelopes somehow aren’t frightening.

Now—draw a line between characters who have a conflict/tension. If you’re feeling fancy, break out the colored pencils and delineate each with colors, for example pink could stand for romantic tension, red for actual open conflict (such as fighting), yellow for implicit conflict (they are on opposite sides of a war but never actually interact), blue for they’re going the same direction but they have different goals, etc.

In the beginning, you should have something like the figure in the second image at the top of the article. In the end, you should have something like the figure in the first image. (Yeah, they're messed up, I'm too sleepy to change it)

This is why I have a hard time keeping my novels contained to reasonable word limits. Because even my spear-carriers have conflicts and back stories, and I feel like they all deserve their turn in the spotlight, even if it’s only for a paragraph. In the hands of a skilled writer, you have a tapestry. In the hands of an amateur, you have a mess.

The point is, each thread of conflict can be developed into a subplot or can influence the main plot. This technique is good because IF you look at your diagram and see no lines of tension between a set of characters (say, your princess and your main male’s warrior’s wizard mentor, a.k.a. Kahlan and Zed) you can literally SEE the lack in your story. You fill that lack by adding a plot even that fills the tension (Zed no longer trusts Kahlan because of Shoata’s prophecy). This makes your story richer and fuller.

This technique also tells you where you can cut characters. If a character only has one line of tension with ANYONE, that means he or she may not actually be important to the story and can be cut, or at least, all his scenes can be shortened. This isn’t always the case—especially with characters who don’t play much role in the story but play a role in the character’s background, ie, the main character’s father. However, if you can create lines of tension from minor characters to major characters, for example, Tam al’Thor’s suspicion of Moiraine, you usually end up with a story that has more meat to it.

I’ll go out on a limb and say the number one problem with stories I dislike is not enough tension. Everyone is happy, cooperative, and the only difficulties they face aren’t inter-party, but from the big dark baddies outside. This is the worse tendency of epic fantasy, in my opinion. Even people who work together for common ends in real life sometimes hate and mistrust each other. That’s why the mysterious stranger in the party is so fun to read about—because he could be a traitor in your midst, if he’s not a Strider knock-off.

These are two tips for using your wonderful characters to flesh out wonderful stories. Remember, it’s all a feed-back loop. The more you know about your character, the more you can develop the world, and as you develop your world, the more your character develops. The same thing goes for plots. It’s very rare that you can have too much knowledge about your world and your plot, so doing these exercises shouldn’t be a waste of time for you, even if you have to cut things later. I might know that my planet isn’t a perfect sphere because an asteroid took a chunk off of it, but I don’t necessarily need to share that information with my reader. Still, it’s good to know in case I ever need that suspicious-looking crater to add mystery to my plot.

So have at it!

PS: In other news, Victor Plushenko’s return to figure skating at the Moscow event of the Grand Prix was phenomenal. Coming off three and a half years of retirement, he can still cream skaters in the prime of their careers. Purely amazing. He’s one of my favorite figure skaters of all time. It’s wonderful to see him lacing up his skates again. And it was wonderful to see the hero worship in the other competitor’s eyes… truly a skater’s skater and a strong athlete. I can’t wait to see him at the Olympics.



Plug

Posted by Unrepentant Escapist



October 6, 2009 -- 12:30 a.m.

I'm putting a plug out for John Brown's book, coming out next week from Tor. I met him at a couple of writer's workshop and he had some really useful things to say. In fact, I credit one of his classes with helping me figure out the ending to my book. Without him...well, who knows?

Anyway, we had a fun brainstorming session where we took an item/trope/setting/etc. and thought about all the things associated with it. And then, we came up with those things opposites. In this case, we picked Pirates. Our pirates turned out to be 12-year-old girls on a living monster ship who were very clean, very nice and weren't looking for treasure but the way to help their monster ship home.

Anyway, he's a writers of the future winner, and how can you go wrong with the title "Servant of a Dark God?"

The first few chapters are up on his website for pdf download. I haven't read them yet, but I'll probably get to them tonight.

Why I Read Fantasy

Posted by Unrepentant Escapist

October 4, 2009 -- 10:04 p.m.

My novel wasn’t giving me an ulcer. It was swine flu. I spent two days throwing up whenever I moved and three days recovering.

I hate it when I can’t write. It’s like a burning inside, if the words get stopped up too long. I don’t think I’ve ever been able to go a whole week, except when I’m on vacation, without writing something—articles, essays, poetry, journal entries, debate cases… It’s an addiction I am unable/unwilling to break.

So that explains why I spend so much time writing. But why do I spend so much time reading fantasy and science fiction? The obvious explanation—I have an easier time relating to fictional characters than real people my age, whose concerns seem to circle entirely around television, music and the opposite sex—I was thinking about it the other day, and I wondered if I were different than others who read the genres. Since mostly, I read fantasy, I’ll stick to that for today. Why do you read fantasy? I distilled it into the following:

1) Escapism, pure and simple. Real life is dull. You push paper. You make mistakes. But it doesn’t really affect the world that much. Nothing changes, no matter what happens. Life goes on.

Fantasy characters don’t usually spend their day struggling to get out of bed trying to figure out why it matters if they go to work today. They don’t spend their day in an office reading email. What they does actually matters. They have a unique ability to shape their worlds, and that makes me envy them and love to read them. Epic struggles of good and evil sound much more interesting than the woes of the cubicle. The fantasies where the character moves through the world and nothing changes are usually the ones that fade from memory quickly.

Some people won’t admit reading for the escapism, or try to ‘pooh pooh’ it, especially among the literary elite. I have enough of a Marxist bent (specifically, the part about how, when people are removed from their work in the process of mass production, they become less individually fulfilled—if there’s nothing physical and concrete that they can point to and say “I did that,” workers become depressed) to believe that escapism will become more and more necessary in the future.

The fact is, it’s merely the flavor of the escapism you choose: whether you escape into the lives of your TV friends, or the romance of romance, or even in non-fiction, escaping to the interesting lives of people who did move and shake the world. Ditto with literary fiction.

2) Characters: Something about the epic nature of fantasy makes for truly unforgettable characters. I can’t remember most of the people, even the so-called “great characters” that populate literary fiction, but I’ll never forget the characters in the fantasies I grew up with. I read Dragonlance for Raistlin and Tasslehoff. I read Wheel of Time for Nynaeve, Mat and the Forsaken. I read Tigana for Dianora. I read the Cycle of Fire and Ice for Daenarys and Tyrion (I would mention more favorite characters but…they all got killed off.).

That’s why my preference skews toward character-driven fantasy, and epic fantasy series in particular, because there’s so much opportunity (often admittedly squandered) for strong characters who grow and change.

It’s funny because I have three character “types” that I love seeing over and over again. And I don’t really care that I’ve seen them before, that they’ve become staples of the genre. They are: The big, baaaad wizards (male or female, though I usually prefer male depictions because female evil wizards tend to be sexualized to the point of laughter or end up being conquered/redeemed by the power of luuuuuv.); the strong female protagonists who have to FIGHT for frickin’ everything (this can go to males too, but females usually have an extra layer of difficulty in their quests, an extra layer of threat—but if stuff comes too easily, well, they’re not worth reading about); and the lovable mischief-maker/outcast who sees the world through a different, humorous perspective. And, naturally, they all have to be intelligent.

If a book doesn’t have one or more of these characters types, it’s unlikely to hold my interest. I think that’s why it took me so long to finish Lord of the Rings. The women…well, aren’t really there. The big bad wizard…isn’t a viewpoint character (they have to be POV characters so their evil justifications make sense). And the mischievous Bilbo (the birthday party is actually one of my favorite parts of the books—though I might be the only one who liked it) gets sidelined right at the beginning. The Lord of the Rings trilogy was wonderful, incredible, earthshaking… but if Sam had been “Samantha,” I probably would have finished it the first time I set out to read the trilogy, and not the third.

So is it any surprise my characters are almost exclusively evil wizards, female underdogs, and mischievous renegades with dark senses of humor? I have a hard time writing anyone else. They bore me.

3) Concept: The third thing I read fantasy for is the concept. Villains by Necessity has an interesting concept: the villains are the heroes. Tigana has an interesting concept: what’s in a name? Is it worth dying for? Robert Jordan has an interesting concept: what happens when the savior of the world is also batshit crazy?

Intrigue me, engage my intelligence. Science fiction has usually been the province of “If”, but I believe fantasy can make an equally good case at it, usually from a softer social sciences perspective. Oddly enough, my some of my favorite science fiction stories (we by the Russian, Zamyatin, Brave New World, Farienheit 451) are dystopian because I love the “what if” so much.

Escapism and thought are not mutually exclusive. In sci-fi/fantasy, they blend in a near-perfect balance, at least for this reader.

Note, none of what I said, except for the big bad wizards, involves magic. Which is why, for the first time in my life, now that I’m trying to bang out a real magic system with rules and everything, I find it so very difficult. Most of the fantasy books of my childhood skewed toward D&D classic magic. It’s there. You can use it in limited ways, usually to blow things up. You don’t need to explain it or its rules. (Aside—I wonder why, in a genre supposedly directed to nerd readership, its so often the warriors—the jocks of the Fantasy world—who direct the plotline, while wizards, the ULTIMATE nerds who actually need books for their power and are usually skinny runts—are relegated to sidekick/mentor/bad guy. I’d think you’d have a bunch of good wizards triumphing over evil warriors, not the other way around).

So trying to focus on something that matters very little to me, like magic, which I view as somewhat of a plot aid to hang the character/concept on, is very difficult. But I believe magic should have rules and stringent limitations, so it’s something I have to do. Brandon Sanderson has a rule I like: An author's ability to solve conflict with magic is DIRECTLY PROPORTIONAL to how well the reader understands said magic. So, the power well-explained/detailed the magic system, the more you can do with it. Otherwise, it robs the reader of some satisfaction—oh, magic was the key to everything all along! Yay! It becomes too easy.

I’d add a corollary—as long as the bad guys can match the good guy, things are okay. It’s when a nebulous magic system or law allows a triumph that things become frustrating and the reader feels cheated—like if a good wizard faces an evil wizard and a good wizard develops a new power suddenly when the bad guy doesn’t. As long as the villain can match it, its all right by me. For example, we don’t understand Moiraine’s limitations in the Eye of the World, but we do see that the bad guys can match and overcome her, so that’s okay.

Anyway, Sanderson’s good at writing magic systems. I’m good at characterization. I’ll borrow his advice, but I’ll stick to what I do best and won’t develop my magic as fully as he has, just because I find writing and explaining all the rules incredibly tedious.

It’s actually kind of scary to me, thinking about fans who might expect me to develop a real language, with grammatical rules and everything, instead of pulling words out of the air for the First Speech that I think sound cool.

Is it natural for someone to be good at writing what they like to read? Is there anything you’ve ever been good at writing that you hate reading?